Friday, November 4, 2011

Scarlett

I kept a diary as a girl, like many. I suppose this blog is my grown up version, also like many. I came across one of my old diaries while cleaning the other day (labeled "Bedtime Stories", I guess to dissuade snoopers??) and thought I'd share a few pieces with you, Cringe-style! As I flipped through it, I was saddened by the angst I was expressing, the cursing, the hating, the self-depreciating and self-harming, the need to be loved, to have a boyfriend, to fit in. But I'm glad I had an outlet, the presence of mind to write it all out. Of course, reading it now that nearly 20 years have passed, I am cringing at my words and want to grab hold of that 14 year old and give her a big hug and protect her from the world, and herself. She obviously needed it. I remember I destroyed a couple of my early diaries, from when I was even younger. Those are the ones I wish I had... this teen drama is still all too fresh in my mind. I'm implementing FlashBack Fridays. Come cringe with me, typos and all!

Sunday, November 13, 1994

DD,
Well, we're moving to B.C. next month. Anywhere after the 8th we'll leave. I don't want to go. Sure I do want to go, but not now. I'll come back with my liscence (license) but that's about the only good thing.

Dad took us to Shelburn today. We saw the movie set. ("The Scarlett Letter") They were filming today so we saw everyone in con costume.

See ya!

~Rainy

**I should get my hands on pictures from touring the movie set. We went multiple times, it was quite something to see!  It was the first time (in my memory) that a major movie was filmed in the area. There have been lots since. I remember going for the casting call. Didn't make the cut, but so many friends and extended family members did.  That theatre was PACKED when the movie was released. My uncles were excited as they were part of a fight sequence and got to see themselves on the big screen. But when it was released to video (1995, remember!) it had been chopped off at the sides. Shoulda gone with widescreen!

2 comments:

Elizabeth - FlourishinProgress said...

Just recently, my mom told me to get my "boxes of junk" out of her garage, so I was digging through a few boxes and found an old journal (another one! these things are multiplying, i swear!) and it was so cringeworthy. All that teen angst. God, I wouldn't repeat those years for all the money in the world!!

Rainyday said...

So true!!!
And, you should post some entries, I'm certain you've got some doozies, just from the posts you've shared already!

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